Joy to Fear to Love

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The palpitating in our hearts is fear.
The shaking of our limbs is shock.
The knots in our neck are frozen indecision.
The tension in our shoulders is the weight of the world.
The constriction in our throats is helplessness.
The ache in our joints is the control we never had.

And yet, it is also this.

The look on our faces is hope.
The glimmer in our eyes is joy.
The smile on our faces is optimism.
The daydreaming we do is for a good tomorrow.
The bond between us is our link to the future.
The hands reaching out to everyone else is love.

And it is not as easy as making the choice.
But it is as simple as accepting them both.- TS

The Tree on the Hill

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if i could hold you
the way that tree does
on the perfect round hill
that seems always to
be in sunshine
its roots bare above
ground, oh, her arms,
offering themselves
in support, and there is
no effort in her generosity
and her generosity
is utterly boundless.
the tears i have shed
under the awning of her
the soothing she has given
she is hundreds of years old
I wonder who else has
breathed and heaved with her
in this country filled with
gods for her
now, hidden by the road
she is a miracle and discovery
witness to one civilization upon next
but she is the castle in the sky,
she will love, and persist. – TS

The Sky on Long Summer Days

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I remember scrunching up into a ball

as low as I could in the backseat of

my parents’ car on summer vacations

(sun-drenched and filled with sweetest things)

and squinting my eyes so that there was

only me and the sky and the whir of

all the things passing by

 

The feeling comes back to me often

though I can’t find the words for it __

the being one with the sky, that seemed

the only constant thing and I could

never touch it or fly right up to it,

though the gravitational pull up

there was so strong

 

The safety of being so still amidst

all that movement, the getting from

here to there that existed to my

childlike mind as a cartography drafted

by the wizards and sorcerers responsible

for all the best of our earthly wanderings,

treasures over the rainbow

 

And for all the adventures that awaited,

the junk cereal indulged in, the death-defying

walks across slippery waterfall rocks, the secrets

my father told his gleeful daughters in his

hushed whispers, it always came to this:

the sky through the car, the warmest invitation,

holding my future safe.

The Other Side of Darkness

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I close my eyes
and the darkness
reverberates in my head,
consuming the anticipation
that leaps playfully in the sun,
flapping like clothes in the breeze
on a midsummer’s day.
 
The darkness enfolds
as darkness can ably do,
in not letting up, in laying bare
its breadth and expansion,
unlike the clothes in the breeze,
the chasm deep, void and still,
fear’s restless homeland.
 
I squeeze my eyes shut,
and the landscape changes
to a show of spectral colors
not veiling the darkness within
but assuring: we are always
here to meet you. We are always
where your journey goes. – TS

Where the Light Lives

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If only our emotions were,
too, perfect symmetries,
elegant meeting places
of colour, texture and shape,
a unity of dark and light,
making breath for the world
of its own resources.
But in that they are not,
I am here in full complexity.
So that I may finally see,
they play and rage within me,
each one awaiting my love
for the gift of understanding.
As the moon rises full,
as the ocean dips and roars,
I, too, will traverse all
of time and space,
swelling with the upsurges,
folding in to soft rhythms
of contemplation,
creating the world of me
from deep inside,
where the light
has always lived. – TS